I want to ask you to do an exercise that we did. If you were to be on an island, and you were to never have communication with other people, and you couldn't even share the gospel with other people, would Jesus be enough for you? If Jesus was literally all you had, would you be satisfied? Think about that and write a letter to yourself so that you can go back to it and be reminded of what God speaks to you about this.
I want the Holy Spirit and my love for Jesus to burn so much inside of me, that He is truly ENOUGH. How exciting can our life be when, no matter what else happens or doesn't happen, Jesus is our one true love? God wants us to be zealous (enthusiastic, eager, fervent, intense, passionate) for Him to remove the hindrances in our lives. Don't feel shame, but instead be excited to come before God and have the Holy Spirit reveal to you those hindrances and lead you to repentance, so you can be closer to Him! I have never thought of repentance in that way, but it makes it so much easier!